in my life

You know, in my life all sorts of things happen and all sorts of things don't. Let's compare 2 weekends - the last 2. Two weeks ago on Friday, I went with my friend to a benefit party, the New Wave Ball. It was an 80's party with dressing up and 80's music and it was so much fun. My buddy, JS, and I got all decked out in our fabulous outfits and walked over to the party. We danced and sang and had some drinks and talked to people and took pictures with some of the random dressed up folks. I had this adorable guy, dressed up as a nerd, come up and start dancing with me. We danced for over an hour straight and chatted some and it was great! I felt so young and good and loved it. I haven't had that happen to me in a very long time. We expressed an interest to see each other again and exchanged numbers. Have I heard from him? Of course not! Why should that happen? Especially to me. So there you go. The rest of the weekend was uneventful. Move to this weekend. Went to Houston to go see Radiohead! Amazing show! We stayed across the street from the venue so there was no driving (yippee) so we had some drinks before the show and took some pictures. My friend LC made me feel incredible with her very sweet comments to me. I can't tell you how nice it was to hear that especially from a gorgeous, tall woman who turns heads everywhere she goes. I think I had a little extra bit of confidence because of that all night. I met a really nice man who brought his son to the show. Then we went to a bar in the neighborhood. A nice looking guy starts talking to me. I start talking back. He is immediately Mr. Touchy Feely. Odd but I've had a few drinks, I'll play along. Then his friend comes over and says that their wives are sisters. Ok. We're done now but oh no, he just keeps coming on to me. Um, no you don't! I was trying to get away but all my friends came back in and started talking to them too. I finally got my friend SC to the side and told him to get me out of there! Thanks for the rescue!! So seriously. A married guy hitting on me. Do I look like an easy target? I'm not. This is what happens in my life. Great start but just a crappy finish. Must figure out a way to have the good finish. I'm open to suggestions! :)

Haiku time

Blah oh blah today! For I am wilting into the oblivion!

Ah the joys!

Ah the joys of being single and trying to date! Ok...far from the joys yet. However, I still hold out potentially irrational optimism or just stupidity that there will be love in my life one of these days. If only I could get to the dating part! That part is pretty easy, in its own way. What is hard is getting from the "I've found you somewhere point to actually meeting"! Seriously! I guess I'm just "old school" when it comes to meeting people, I actually want to meet them, in person! Is that weird or wrong? It is one thing to talk to or chat with a person online. It is something completely different to see a person and watch how they interact. You can't get affect, mannerisms, interest without being face-to-face. Case in point: I went out with a guy a few years ago. Seemed like a very nice guy online and on the phone. We met at a coffee shop one day. Holy Moly! The guy that showed up was not at all what I thought I was meeting. He had a totally flat affect which means there was no emotion at all when talking. NONE!!! It was like talking to a wall. Sorry! Can't do that. No emotion when talking = no personality. That doesn't work for me. I did try to give him one more chance thinking maybe it was just a bad day but no. That was all there was to that fish in the sea. I threw him back! :) So I guess it comes down to either me getting with the "new way" of trying to date or staying me and hoping there is a chance to actually meet. The end goal, LOVE, is what it is all about. The journey getting there is confusing, difficult, fun, enjoyable, aggrevating, annoying, intriguing, sweet, silly, hot, cold...well, you get the point. I'm in it for the long haul, smart or not. I'm a sap! Can't help it!

Addictions

I think I'm addicted to TV, facebook, and food. Not so good but a fact. I guess it could be worse. It could be drugs or alcohol. TV is the first thing on in the morning and the last thing off at night. It is my companion - I do live alone after all. It is noise. But that isn't the whole story. I love my shows. NCIS, NCIS LA, Hawaii 5-0, Criminal Minds, Glee, and CSI to name a few. I haven't even touched on the cable series (USA has great shows)! I do have standards though. I refuse to watch Jersey Shore, Real Housewives of whatever city, The Kardashians, Paris Hilton...well, you get the idea. I just don't get those shows! There is NOTHING real about these "reality" shows. But I'm not here to talk about that (future topic, though). It is hard to believe that I have only had DVR for about a year. But wow! It is fantastic! I love it and it allows me to watch my shows and still have a life. How did we live without this?!?! So yes, TV is an addiction but one I'm not ready to get rid of. Next time I sign in...I'll give my thoughts about my Facebook addiction. That should be interesting! Later!!

Haiku time

You know you love them!! ;)

O Texas football
Burnt was our spirit last year
Fire is good this time!

Blogger??

I suck as a blogger! 4 months since my last post! What is up with that??? I assure you it isn't a lack of things to say. Perhaps it is just a lack of time. Yeah, that's it! Ok, no it isn't. It is a lack of motivation. I'm finding that to be a problem in a lot of areas in my life, mainly sticking to Weight Watchers.

I'm not really sure how I lost motivation when I was really doing well. Maybe that was it. If I do too well, I think I've got it under control and I screw it up. Well, enough of that.

No more screwing up myself and no more being a slacker on any front. I have some things I want to do and I need to get off my ass and get it going!! So I'm going to do one of those things and that will be blogging at least once a week. You all need to hold me to it. Actually, hold me to all of it! I'm apparently not trustworthy when it comes to myself! :)

Peace out!!

Who am I?

Nah, don't be too worried! I'm not finding out who I am as a person...just what I want to look like. I'm feeling the need for a new style. My body is changing (YEA) and I think that maybe I should too.
I saw all sorts of interesting styles at SXSW and I wonder, can I pull them off? And I can do it all the time? Will the new style fly at work? That is a big challenge.
I've always liked the rockabilly look. I think it is a lot of fun. I also like a little bit more of a punk look. Short, sassy hair a big key on that one. Then there is the vintage look. Love that but that one will have to wait for a bunch more weight to be lost - those clothes were so small! :) I could go for seriously trendy. I'm thinking that one might take too much time but could be fun. Classic is always a good look and the preppie thing is coming back. I would love to be able to go for the high fashion look but I'm afraid my bank account forbids that one. One majorly important thing for me to keep in mind is that I'm a 45 year old woman...I can't and won't try to look like I'm 20.
So now my new mission - figure out who I am on the fashion/style front! If you see me trying things, be nice but be honest and let me know what you think. If it works, great. If not, let me down gently!
Be on the look out! You don't know when you'll see the whole new me!! :)