Thursday, November 10, 2011

Monday, November 7, 2011

Ah the joys!

Ah the joys of being single and trying to date! Ok...far from the joys yet. However, I still hold out potentially irrational optimism or just stupidity that there will be love in my life one of these days. If only I could get to the dating part! That part is pretty easy, in its own way. What is hard is getting from the "I've found you somewhere point to actually meeting"! Seriously! I guess I'm just "old school" when it comes to meeting people, I actually want to meet them, in person! Is that weird or wrong? It is one thing to talk to or chat with a person online. It is something completely different to see a person and watch how they interact. You can't get affect, mannerisms, interest without being face-to-face. Case in point: I went out with a guy a few years ago. Seemed like a very nice guy online and on the phone. We met at a coffee shop one day. Holy Moly! The guy that showed up was not at all what I thought I was meeting. He had a totally flat affect which means there was no emotion at all when talking. NONE!!! It was like talking to a wall. Sorry! Can't do that. No emotion when talking = no personality. That doesn't work for me. I did try to give him one more chance thinking maybe it was just a bad day but no. That was all there was to that fish in the sea. I threw him back! :) So I guess it comes down to either me getting with the "new way" of trying to date or staying me and hoping there is a chance to actually meet. The end goal, LOVE, is what it is all about. The journey getting there is confusing, difficult, fun, enjoyable, aggrevating, annoying, intriguing, sweet, silly, hot, cold...well, you get the point. I'm in it for the long haul, smart or not. I'm a sap! Can't help it!