Sucker!!!

So there is a little update from my last post. Don't you hate it when you find out you've been taken advantage of? I certainly do especially when it is from the standpoint of matters of the heart. It turns out that the "guy" I thought I met is another scammer. Asked me for money after some seriously lame story about getting mugged. Did I need to remind this "guy" that I'm a nurse and you shouldn't try to get medical stuff past someone who works in the profession!!! Medical people are going to ask medical questions when there is something like that being presented to us. And don't ask for money in foreign currency! Really??? Do you think I'm going to send you pounds sterling? Right.
Well, lesson learned! Now just to get over the sting of feeling stupid. I know, I shouldn't feel stupid because that is what these people do - they suck you in and make you want to believe them. It's their job and they're good at it. But guess what? I still feel stupid! And I'm also a little hurt. As much as I try not to be, I'm a believing person. I like to think people are good. I know as a rational adult that most people probably are but there are enough that aren't that I should be on my guard. I WILL be for a while! Trust me!
I believe in love and I really want to be in love. That is why I, against my better judgement, I fell for it. I don't know what else to do but I know where it won't be happening. Cupid.com - HORRIBLE site! Full of scammers.
For the time being, I'll just be a slightly jaded hopeful/hopeless romantic! It's just who I am.

Call me Slacker!

Wow! What kind of slacker am I? Totally neglecting my blog! Unacceptable. My apologies. Obviously, I've been a little busy. But have I got a treat for you - read on!!

So is there really such a thing as love at first sight? Even less believable, is it possible to fall in love with someone you haven't met yet? Internet dating puts us in this position these days. Especially if you live away from the person. What can you believe? You can say anything you want and put out any picture you can find, as long as you have many different ones of the same person, and it doesn't have to be real. How do you know if you can trust them? If you are lying, is it easy to do? If someone is lying to you, can you tell? When can you start believing? For some people like me, I'm a believer. Or at least I want to be.
I'm gullible. I'll be the first to admit it. I try not to be but I'm trusting. I've been single for so long these days, it also puts me at risk for believing. I want to believe. I NEED to believe. I'm tired of being a single girl. My life is okay, some days even great but I'm lonely! I need love and companionship. I have great friends and family but let's face it. There is only so much they can do. So over the last few years, I've tried the internet dating scene. I've tried pretty much all of the reputable sites - Match, Chemistry, E-harmony, Yahoo personals - a couple of them more than once. What did these sites get me? Nothing but a lower self esteeem and a lighter pocket book. I took a break for a while from these kind of sites and had a few dates the normal way - asking - but nothing came of those except some friendship.
So I tried another site with some REALLY awful initial results but a pretty good one at the end of my very short time there. Can you fall for someone you haven't met? I'm finding myself doing just that and I'm a little petrified! What am I thinking? What do I have to lose? Nothing else has worked and I've never had anyone ever tell me some of the wonderful things I've been told. Don't worry! My guard is up. But when do I let it down? I'll have to keep trying this. I'll keep you posted. Hopefully it will be with good news. We'll see.